Still listening to Katatonia. What can I say though, everything this singer has ever said describes what I am feeling lately.

I feel so sad, so lost and so frustrated.

I am sick of crying, I am stick of everything that I feel. I feel like I am so lost in my own little world and I need more aggression to survive here because whatever is inside of me, needs to come out....pain, anger and beauty.

I am in the process of trying to find a band I can sing in. This is going to be a long process.

I am not very happy with Jesse right now. We can't get along. We try, but everything that comes out of our mouths is nasty and mean. I don't even want to look at him and it hurts. I love him, but I just can't keep trying to be in this relationship. It's draining and boring at the same time. I feel stuck and trapped and I am sick of the extreme feelings I have when I'm with him.

I think the main thing in my life that really makes me feel so torn up inside is our relationship. I have to say yet again that it is time for us to just be friends again.

Things are going to change a lot in my life.