Emperor - Thus Spake the night spirit

I just watched our new Lord of The Rings DVD and cut Jesse's hair. It's shorter now, shoulder lenght, and it's layerd, so he looks like a hot rock star now. Yum.

I miss both of my younger sisters. They are both going through some rought times at the moment and they're both in two different cities and I feel like I'm not doing anything useful for them being way over here. I want to kill those who hurt them.

I feel so sad. I hate seeing those I love so much hurt in any way. I hate to even think anything bad could happen to anyone. My eyes fill with tears and I almost feel their pain, just thinking about it. Maybe when I meditate, i'll light a candle and send out some good energy to them both.

I've eaten so much watermelon tonight, I feel as though I am going to explode. It's refreshing, but very filling.

I'm kind of scared right now too. I am all alone because I am the only person awake in the house right now. I have a really left out feeling inside of me. I just find it hard and join all the others and go to sleep. I have too much on my mind.

Jesse and I decided to start reading a book to eachother from now on before bed. He's going to start off with a book by Tanith Lee, one of his favorite authors, and i'm still undecided about what to start reading to him. I have so many to chose from. I miss when he used to read me freaky horror stories while I was bathing. I miss so many of the small things that he used to do.